Fresh Look

I needed a boost so i gave my blog a face lift :) God is doing a good work right now in many areas of my life. The coolest has been that I've found a new love for spending alone time with God. My latest "date" with God exceeded any expectation that i could've had. It was deep. It was quiet. It was interesting. It was fulfilling. It was delightful. My goal for this next week is to not be afraid to schedule in alone time for just me and Him.
Parenting six children continues to grow me in my likeness of Christ! Six kids with six different personalities, six different needs, likes, dislikes, arguing styles, attitudes...ect! I think my only hope is stay a moldable piece of clay in God's hands. I'm enjoying many aspects of their lives. They are truly remarkable and I'm blessed beyond measure!!!!
I must go...gotta sleep!
k

Happy Birthday to Renay!!!!

Happy, Happy Birthday to my precious friend Renay! She's 30 something and pregnant
with her 4th little blessing of joy, which I am convinced is a girl!!
I need to take this moment and totally gloat on my friend because she is working her little
hiney off, balancing a family, household duties, church, demanding friends such as myself who begin to stalk her when they don't get a returned phone call- she is amazing! Go Renay, Go!!!!
I am truly proud of her as I can't imagine what it must be like to work night shift and be pregnant!!!!
You all know the story of how we met, but I'll tell it again. Renay first came into my life at a gym- hmmmmm...wonder what God is trying to say there? teeheee! I thought she looked like my long lost cousin named Becky, but I quickly found out that she was not. She was like the exercise queen of the universe and barely answered my question as she huffed and puffed on the eliptical (i think). Then, about a year later- there she was again as my nurse with delivering Evan. She came on shift about 30 min. before Evan made his grand appearance by jumping out into the other nurse's hands...the Dr. came in quickly after! I still remember her gentle, kind caring attitude as she helped me get from the delivery bed to a wheel chair. She even wheeled me by the nursery to see Evan :) Then, she dissappeared again for another year and then voila...there she was again! Man, God is cool! So, I ended up doing a Pampered Chef show with her as the consultant and I became the bestest recruit she had ever had!! teeeheeeee! We soared in Pampered Chef together for 3 years. Imagine 3 years of your life spent talking to someone at LEAST once a day...more like 4 times/day min!!! And now...... no more Pampered Chef, no more Kara having babies, no more exercise (sad), but the binding glue is GOD! Our friendship is precious to me. I love the fact that I can call her and be completely nuts, crazy, happy, sad, up, or down and she listens, she cares and she loves me. God has an awesome purpose for our friendship and I'm still in awe how he brought her in and out of my life over a period of about 3 years before we ever really connected...now that's a total God thing!!!!!

Today, Renay, I wish you the happiest of birthdays. But above happiness, I wish you peace. May you rest and be peaceful in the fact the God is on the throne and is doing great and wonderful things through your willingness to serve Him! Stay strong my friend.
I love you!
K

Struggling....

Thank you for your thoughts and concerns over my last post. It's been a difficult road and a lot of self inflicted guilt...but God keeps reminding me that He is bigger than all of this. I've screwed up in many ways as a parent and am constantly trying to lean on Him, but man is it tough not to get swallowed up in the guilt of seeing my own child struggle with something that she's learned from me. This is hard.
To God be the glory as Anna has become quite determined to eat healthier. She's lost 10 lbs and seems to be very happy. As we approach winter, I'm concerned about what exactly we all should do to stay active. I would love to get a membership to Faith Community Center...we'll see.
I'm a bit down overall. I'm struggling with obedience and discipline. I beg for your prayers as my heart and spirit do truly want to please God, but I'm being selfish and disobedient- I hate it!
I must go and do a bit of laundry!
My eating has been a 3 on a scale from 1 to 10! Ughhhhhhhh, but I have to remember that I can do this!!! I can do all things through Christ whom strengthens me!!!!
Pray for Anna's team as tonight they will be playing in the county championship game at Wainwright. They play against East Tipp.!!! She loves volleyball, which is so like me!!!
k

Pre-diabetes

Do you ever hate sounding like a broken record? Repeating and repeating and repeating the same thing over and over and over again! I'm posting this to ask for prayer- serious prayer.
I'm going to battle and I need you all 100% behind me. I'm fighting for not only my health but now for daughter's also. We just found out the Anna is in the pre-diabetes stage just like me. I hate it. I hate it. I hate. I want to sit and cry and say how it's all my fault. Waa, waaa, waaa, poor me. I am not going to sit here and whine. I need to get off my rump and do something. I don't even know what to say right now...please prayer.
I'm gonna put my weight tracker back up...it fell off because I hadn't updated it for so long. I'm still stuck at 4 lbs. above my lowest weight this summer. It's all about choices...choices to eat healthy, exercise, live healthily and balanced. I could write a book on all the info. that I know. But knowing it and doing it are 2 different things. Pray that I have God's power to keep fighting. I feel weak. Pray for Anna to not become rebellious and hide her eating (which is what I used to do). Pray that the generational curse is broken and shattered forever.
I go in tomorrow morning for bloodwork to check my cholestrol....and have an appt. with Dr. Cooper the following Thurs. to review results and where I am in all this.
Love you all,
k