Better

Your prayers have been helpful. I'm finally feeling a bit revived. My monthly friend decided to visit and wiped me out yesterday. I slept for 3 hours in the middle of the day- ahhhh...it was a yummy nap! I asked to not go back to work until this next Monday which I'm very relieved about. I can't remember another time in my life when so many stresses came crashing down all at once. Many of you have been worried about me and I know you love me. Thank you.Thank you. Thank you. I wish I could make more sense of myself...but I can't. Thank you for loving me right where I am. I am very, very, very bad about admitting when I'm getting maxed out until finally the volcano just erupted. It's NO ONE's fault for not seeing it coming. I'm just taking it one day at a time and breathing deep breaths again. The problem with me is that I can stay afloat and appear to be just fine...why? because I begin to tune out the big things around me, the kid's fighting and not obeying. I've decided to slow down majorly! Majorly! I'm planning to mass organize things in my home, would love to paint the living room before Christmas, and shampoo the carpets.