It's been a busy day and I'm just getting to posting!
You have no idea how freeing that was yesterday to
write about the fact that I'm a people pleaser.
God has blessed me with strong, bold friends like
Tina to challenge me to think about the deeper
questions to why I behave the way i do :) She's so
good at calling a spade a spade.
I know what I want to be and that is "Christ-like."
The more I grow in this journey, the more I realize
how much I don't know. I hate when I'm feeling
distant from God... it can happen so quickly. In this
very moment I feel a million miles away from HIM.
Then I start to feel like a hypocrite. Then I start
thinking that maybe I just "pretend" to know
God, but don't really have a clue. All of this
negativity starts bombarding me and I feel like
I'm drowning in a pit of poop, or better known
as the lies of the enemy.
I start to dread waking up tomorrow to face
mundane, everyday tasks. I wonder if I'll fail again
tomorrow and avoid doing all the housework that
should be done asap...like mopping the kitchen
and laundry room floors!!! By the way.. yes,
hold me accountable to that. Speaking of my laundry
room floor- I hate those stupid cats of ours. They are
a pain in my rump!!! I know some of you love cats
and dogs and all different kinds of animals- but let
me tell you that my 2 cats are the messiest litter-users!
I thought I'd be smarter than the average bear and buy
those handy dandy cat pan liners. Well, I'm not sure
what type of a giant cat litter pan they are made for,
but they are way too big! So, what do i do???? I try
to fold down the sides and this apparently creates
a reservoir to hold cat whiz that misses the pan- I
don't know what their problem is!!! No one wants
cat pee on their floor. Do any of your cats have a
problem peeing in the proper place? Isn't this
supposed to be a God-given, natural ability of
a cat's perspective on peeing!!????
Ask Renay what my reaction
is when I go into the laundry room to clean it up...
I about puke!!! Renay has witnessed by telephone
my gag reflex when approaching the "whizzed" area!!!
Ewwwwwwwww! I'm not verbally abusive in general,
but I have to confess that these cats have gotten an
earful of verbal badgering by me! I am afraid that
someone is going to call CPS on me (Cat Protective
Services) Teeeeheeee!
Ok, enough of that! Does anyone have a good point
value for Arni's cheese pizza? I cashed in some flex
points on that baby tonight!!! Now, I know some of
you do not touch your flex points- hip hip hooray!
But I think my body needs the extra so it doesn't
go into shock and I have to remember this is a
lifestyle change NOT temporary diet. I have
said this over and over and over to myself so that
I don't beat myself up over these indulgences. This
is working for me as it may not work for you.
I'm so thankful for this blog... because I have
an outlet. Just in the short while that I've been
typing, I already am feeling God's peace come
over me and His love surrounding me. All i have
to offer is just me.... ordinary ole me. Nothing special,
nothing spectacular, a regular roller coaster ride
of a life- simple ole me. Thank you for loving me
right where I am. I know you love every inch of me,
fat and all. And I appreciate that, I really do.
Good night friends!
Life is Good because of God! Thumbs up!!!
3 comments:
Kara,
Blogs are great for accountability and letting it all out, aren't they? I look forward to every single one of your posts. I say this all the time...but you really are talented. Thanks for sharing.
Oh, and all of my 1,000 cats from growing up on the farm were messy litter users. It sticks to their paws when they walk out... Pets are really hard on houses. I find we have more hair in our house than a beauty salon with just one dog (who we actually brush daily).
Anyway, keep up the good work. Today, I'll be posting our healthy spinach and black bean enchiladas on my blog...when I have a moment.
Love you tons!
Emily
Oh how I miss my cats...oh well, let by gones be by gones, never again. This was a great post. Arni's pizza, ugh-see another thing I shouldn't have. I'm sure I'll be using my flex points soon enough.
Hmm...Arni's pizza? I would count the points as a thin-crust cheese pizza. I'm sure that you've already thought of that so it probably doesn't help much, but those are my 2-cents. It's ok to use your flex now and then (or always). That's what they are for!
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